wooah been long since i blogged but anws yeah here i am :)

A friend of mine had an unfortunate incident this morning, his mother unfortunately passed away. Even writing this post, my heart still feels kind of heavy despite not being close to him despite not even talking to him much through my mp days, But i guess the reason i still feel so much is cause maybe i had almost came close to losing my mother a couple years back.

I just want to express my sincere condolences to him and his mom and may his mom rest in peace and be at a better place now.

All these just got me thinking, how short one life can be. YOLO this phrase i believe just pops out as well 'you only live once'. I was watching this china matchmaking show and this guy said ' LIVING happy is just doing the things you want and living the life you want to live.' So many people can be studying a degree just for a sake of getting a good job and earning big money. Though it contradicts with what this man has said, BUT SERIOUSLY who does not want to earn big bucks??? but then are we truly happy? Slog your guts out for half to 3/4 of your life and en joy ok maybe ur retirement which is maybe 10-20 years??

what happens to the 60 years? I'm not saying its wrong for people to have dreams and stuff and earning big bucks but then it got me thinking would i want to live a life JUST TO EARN MONEY SO I CAN GET THRU WITH MY LIFE JUST SO I CAN RETIRE COMFORTABLY OR really live my life such that i enjoy every single aspect and moment of it and live it the way i want it . I know this is like asking a tiger to suck your balls and not bite it off, considering the high cost of living these days as well. Maybe this is just a basic form of survival instinct in us as well, as now even no one gives a shit if you have a degree coz almost everyone has one.

I always believed Humans are wired to be in 'take things for granted'
basically when we dont have it we want it, when we have it we go like now what? thats why i guess constant reminder is needed for us to treasure what we have now. I'm no exception, many times shouting at my mom for jsut nagging and repeating stuffs, but was it really nessacary to shout back?

cant this 20 year old guy just step back and cool it and just listen to what she has to say, what wrenches my heart always is that she forgives me so readily. Kinship really is thicker than steel, kid you not. I will try to treasure my family and whatever but having said that.. inside i know i cant guaruntee that and i always fear that  one day i would regret not treasuring them.